zandra's

2010-02-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

I LOVE MG12! ;D

I was so afraid I wouldn't do a good job as an ogl back then, especially on the first day of school, when everyone was so quiet and bored by the college tour. But I was pleasantly surprised on the second day. To see them having fun sabo-ing each other while playing whacko during the MG time was really wow ;D And that game could actually keep them occupied for quite long! Hahs! Then after knowing each others names and contacts, a few of them asked me online if I could cope with my studies cos I'm skipping lessons for orientation, telling me to sleep soon, thanking me for doing up the contact list, for sacrificing lessons for orientation and suggesting things we could do as an MG. Sweet of them! <3

Dearest MG, thanks for being appreciative and initiative! (; Omg, I think I can remember all your names already!

My ogl partners are super good too! One's damn enthu and hyper and another's very friendly and thoughtful ;D

Yay, two more weeks of oriention!! I don't want it to end so soon ); But I've got lots of catching up of work to do already, omg.

Corinthians are awesome! The flag, the performance, the dinners together, the cheers, the flashmobs and of course the people! Looking forward to every tomorrow (until CNY ends) ;D

I think I'm damn lucky!

2009-10-21T22:57:00.002+08:00

Hello, I've decided to abandon this blog and move to another.
http://wafflesplusicecream.tumblr.com/
(;

2009-10-11T20:11:00.004+08:00

是我想太多.

Let's get on with life.

2009-10-11T18:28:00.002+08:00

I wish East Coast Park was nearer. I miss sitting on the rocks facing the sea and enjoying the sea breeze. Hahs, but the sea isn't very pretty. Anyway, thanks for yesterday (;

Maria, me too! Let's go together soon! ;D Hahahas, but I cycle damn slow...

Mahjong, drama and cluedo! But we all looked quite bored earlier ;/

You guys don't get it. Grr );

2009-10-09T23:19:00.003+08:00

Atashinchi no Danshi (;
I just completed watching this cute japanese drama. Hahas, it's quite cute. It's amazing how 7 strangers can live together and become a family, and share this strong relationship (;

I went Jurong Point again yesterday, to have dinner with my girlfriends (; Dine at Lai Lai Kitchen. The serving looks little but it was so filling. Nice meal (; With 3 birds missing. Jiayou birdnest! Just a few more papers to go ya? Shall meet you girls soon again! (;

There's many things I want to do, but I'm just so lazy to plan. I'm feeling really lethargic these days... );

My dad is so cute. He woke me up early in the morning to remind me to lock the master bedroom door if I'm going out later. I nodded my head and wanted to go back to sleep. He woke me up again and asked me to repeat what he said. LOL. He was afraid I couldn't remember what he told me.

Yay, I'm going cycling tomorrow! (;

I shouldn't have done so. I'm irritated by you.

2009-10-08T01:39:00.005+08:00

PROMOS' OVER! ;D

YAY!

What's next?
PW & CHINESE.

I didn't have enough time to think for physics paper 1. But I felt better after doing paper 2 (;

Mathematics is the only paper I'm satisfied with ;D (exclude Qn15)

My class girls and I went for lunch at Pizza Hut before they all left me and Maria ); We went Jurong Point to shop before going back to Lot 1 to watch Phobia2. Hahas, the ending was damn funny! YAY my first NC16 movie ;D Thanks girl for the company! (;

2009-10-04T23:16:00.000+08:00

This is the nth time we're upset with each other.

I'm sorry.

2009-10-02T22:11:00.003+08:00

I may have to go on a vegetarian diet for a day soon ); Hahas, only the SAIS will get what I mean. Hm, but Chemistry was much better than the previous lousy papers. I've got lots of careless mistakes, sadly ); And I forgot some of the contents, esp. for Chem Eqm.

Let's move on (;

Sleep is a great getaway.

2009-10-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

Crap, I think I've screwed up my two most important papers - Gp and Econs.
It's almost impossible to stop fretting about them.
Crying over results? I hope not );
Even if I have to leave.
我尽力了.
不准哭);

2009-09-30T20:48:00.002+08:00

Shall take a short break from econs.

Thanks for the caring tags <3

f: Hahas, I didn't skip meals (; LOL I'm eating more than I should.

YT: Thanks, you too ;P

eunice: tsk tsk tsk, yours is over ); I still got 8 days more! ;D

JAyPer: Get well soon ya! Drink buckets of water, hahahahs ;P

Maria: Okie! (;

Back to econs.

2009-09-30T20:12:00.004+08:00

一次又一次的伤害，
一次又一次的原谅.

That's part and parcel of life.

I'm afraid of tomorrow.

2009-09-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

"Fail GP, NO promotion"
I'm so dead.

Essay - Q7 (environment)
There's "Sole reason", "Increasingly" and "Is this a fair claim". I hope I answered the question );

Comprehension - Dead.

ECONSSSSSSS next. On thursday. Wish me good luck. Fail Econs, No Sydney, right ;/

Grr.

Papers left this week: ECONOMICS & CHEMISTRY.

2009-09-26T23:00:00.003+08:00

Red eye, again. I was the last patient for the day. No worries, it's just infection. I told the doctor, I felt no pain/itch, he looked puzzled. And added that it's can't be no pain/itch. But I was speaking the truth. I've got three different eye drops. And I've spent 103.70dollars for medical this month.

1001 smses. Exceeded. I've only got 500 free smses, hahahas quite pathetic ;/

I woke up at 11.30am today ); LOL and failed to make it to the library. Will try again tomorrow, hahas.

是我想太多.

GENERAL PAPER. Scared? Very.

2009-09-23T21:10:00.002+08:00

I'm eating because I'm unhappy. This has been going on for years. But it worsened recently. I just can't stop munching on junk food. Knowing that it won't help to make me feel better, I'm still doing it.

I've lost control of myself.

2009-09-22T19:35:00.002+08:00

Volleyball! Pe was fun & Maria was a great partner ;D My arms have many tiny red dots now.

From now till 7th of october, I must stay focus (;

2009-09-21T22:41:00.006+08:00

It's all promos fault.

I'm never good at multi-tasking. Family versus Studies. My girlfriends would most probably be aware that I'd always rejected weekend outings because I'll save them for my family. But ever since I came to JC, I feel crazily busy. Plus there are so many family problems. There's too many changes. Honestly, I think I've tried my best. Ever since the departure of my grandpa, I've been absent for those prayers. What have I been doing then? Going to the library to study. 力不从心. I really wish I could be there to pay my respect. As much as how I'd tried to go over every week or so in the past months. Ultimately, there's a limit to everything.

I promise I'll plan stayovers at my grandparents house once promos is over. I've rejected their offers too many times, and I'm really sorry.

It's been a long time since I last went shopping with my family. I'm disgusted by myself each time I felt reluctant to even go out for a meal with them. "Am I wasting time?" Aren't you freaked out? I am. Because I'm a family-oriented person, family means more than anything else. But I've been neglecting them, so do my siblings. All of us are too preoccupied with our own responsibilities. Aren't as close as before.

I'm forced to do so.

I need my own personal time. Leave me alone for a while.

Both physically and mentally tired.

2009-09-16T00:45:00.004+08:00

I don't understand. I'm tired.

Heartaching.

);

2009-09-15T14:55:00.002+08:00

I'm sick ); Visited the polyclinic yesterday, alone. I was having fever, flu and cough. Whole body felt really weak and tired. Anyway, the doctor took throat swabs, and it hurts and it was so uncomfortable, I tried so hard to push the doctor hands away ;x Omg, so embarrasing ;/

I was sleeping from morning till evening, waking up once in a while. And I had pizza for dinner, LOL. Yes, I'm really sick. Did some physics MCQ before I went back to sleep. Anyway, thanks for sending my things to me (;

Many many thanks to my super nice friends (; Thanks for all the get well soon smses (;

Fever and flu are gone. I feel so much stronger today! Fit to go school tomorrow! (;

Today was supposedly my turn for newsroom. Sorry Maria you'd to go first );

Hahahs, 15/25 for econs case study! YAY! It's a pass! ;D And tsk tsk, my chinese teacher is so petty and evil, she deducted 1 mark for something stupid and trivial. 69.5, grr.

I'm strong! (;

2009-09-11T00:12:00.003+08:00

Hahahahas I just realised after visiting my beloved birdies blogs, we went Sakae on 090909 ;D Hahs, yay I'm so updated now ;P Love you girls!

Special note for meh meh bird: Next outing must come ya! (; Jiayou <3

Stayed over at my grandparents' place yesterday (; Grandpa's health is getting better already, he can walk much faster now (; gah, he's still a workaholic. Grandma is as caring as ever <3

But she keeps complaining about my hair and asks me to cut away my lovely fringe ); LOL.

I think my maid is great (;

Mac today. Yay, new study buddy (; Hahahs, I'm so sorry, I keep coughing. Tsk, I'm irritated by myself too ;x I did quite a lot, finally. But I still need to speed up, cos I'm lagging too much.

Mummy and brother are coming home tomorrow! ;D

听: 蔡旻佑 - Stay with Me

2009-09-08T10:14:00.000+08:00

THE PROPOSAL <3 IT'S A MUST WATCH! TOTALLY SWEET AND FUNNY! ;D

YAY SAKAE BUFFET WITH BIRDIES TOMORROW! <3

I haven't been calculating my spendings. But I think I've been spending quite a lot. I'm supposed to save up for shopping after promos. Okie, time to scrimp and save.

I'll mug hard today (;

2009-09-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling lousy, I didn't manage to finish the Economics case study test ); It's a sure fail paper. Alright, move on.

Sister was mad at me this morning. She chased me out of her room after lecturing me while I'm half awake ); Cos my three alarms were irritating her to the max. I'm sorry I couldn't wake up ); So I'll have to sleep in my own room tonight. Still sisters after all <3

I stayed back after school to do some work with the girls after the Economics lecture. Only did a few Math questions ;x Jasmine was worst, tsk!

Yesterday was so cute, coincedentally or was it not? Hahs anyway, 9 classmates of mine were mugging at woodlands library (;

AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR PROMOS TO END! THERE'RE SO MANY PLANS! <3
But I'm so not prepared for promos currently );

听:失落沙洲

2009-09-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

MY HOUSE WAS ALMOST ON FIRE ); My sister was steaming the dumpling for me for my dinner, and we went to do our own things, leaving it to slowly heat up in the kitchen. I was sitting opposite the kitchen and I wasn't aware of the disgusting smell until my sister shouted for me when she ran into the kitchen. The wok was on fire, the kitchen was filled with smoke. Omg, my house would really be on fire if I was alone at home );

Now that I am. Grr, daddy faster come home ); It sucks to be alone at home.

I took 2 whole hours to wash my hamster cages. It's clean and neat now (;

Yesterday was Mummy's birthday! (; We took a last minute video and bought cake for her! <3 They're in China now (;

THINGS TO DO:
PACK MY WORKSHEETS AND STUDY FOR ECONS.

As timid as a mouse );

2009-09-03T18:38:00.003+08:00

WiE Girls Rock! Jasmine, Huilin, Yanying, Stacy and I went for the talk after our mock chinese exam yesterday. It's quite interesting (; And I saw Jolene, Sinlin and Leehui there ;D Hm, can consider Industrial and Systems Engineering. It's a mixture of everything, hahs.

My house is in a mess. My bad, I've not been contributing much ;/ My mum and brother are flying on saturday. I hope mummy will enjoy herself totally in China after so many things have happened, she deserves a good break! (; And I'm very proud of my mum, she's our superwoman! (;

Daddy isn't sleeping well these days. But I'm really grateful, he'll always wake up in the morning to ensure I'm awake, thanks daddy! (; It'll probably take some time for everything to settle down. It's tough to be an adult.

Oh I had a haircut, it's much shorter now ); Three of us were emo-ing at YY's house on Tuesday, hahas. And I found a long lost friend! ;D

I wish everything was as perfect as I want it to be.

Those few scenes have been flashing across my mind since then. I shouldn't be afraid, but I can't help it ); Sometimes, I detest myself for being so silly. It's fading, shall keep those happy memories only (;

CHEMISTRY TEST TMR, OFF TO MUGGGGGG. I've been very sleepy, lazy and inefficient, grr.

也许只是我.

You knew my weakness. I'll keep a distance.

2009-09-01T00:52:00.002+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day! (;

The skit put up by PJC's student council was really entertaining! ;D

Thanks Dolly's friend! Sweetest friend ever (;

Back to CSS. Left PJC with Dolly and Jasper and saw Rey at Jurong East Interchange (; CSS's western food for lunch, it's a dollar cheaper, tsk. Collected Yearbook, hahas, quite lousy. Saw leongs and phoon before we left (;

It's quite a waste, we're forever so segregated. That's them.

KBox with Anne, Jiamin, Eunice, Serene, Adeline & Liying after that! We sang from 3plus to 9pm ;P <3 KBox, though I don't sing well, it's still a great place to relieve stress (; LJ for dinner. eh, I want Sakae Buffet! ;P

No stayover for me );

I'm gonna cut hair and mug with my dearest threesome tmr! Yay ;D

Goodnight!

2009-08-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

Replies to Tag first (;

Shiyun: Let's go after promos! hahas tsk, shiyun, you forgotten you going to relax next monday ar! YUP MUG TGT! (;

Eunice: Sat, 22nd. It's okie, I heard from Serene you all going back le, yay! ;D

Maria: Hahahas, I'm poor, no money to eat at restaurants ); Good good, you should eat more and gain some weight! It's unhealthy to be too thin (;

Norman AU: LOL, you're welcome ;P Yeah okie (;

Jasper: 1 month to promos is damn fast ); I'll work hard, you too ya (;

Today was just another school day. I'm always falling asleep during physics lectures ); Jasmine, Yanying and I spent an hour chatting in the canteen after school then waited for Huilin. I hope we'll all not lose contact after 2 years, <3! Some people say it's rare to find good friends in JC, but I found them ;D

There's a pimple on my elbow and arm which hurts );

I'll work hard. I hope to go school even earlier if I can wake up! hahahs but I foresee I'll fail terribly, tsk ;P

Good night! (;

2009-08-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

Played frisbee with my class today! Totally fun, joy and laughter ;D HAHAS, but I'm really sorry, my throwing skills sucks. And I threw the frisbee at chiew ming's head unintentionally, I'm really sorry );

I studied so hard for my economics test, yet i still flunked it. Damn. I just can't click with humanities subjects. Physics test was worst, 5/25 ); I'll leave external factors out of the picture, cos others would have been able to cope with them and scored a hundred times better. I'll just blame my imbecility, I just don't get it, tsk. No point getting agitated and overly upset, I'm sick and tired of it, please allow me to laugh it off.

Each setback demoralises me further, and I'm silently giving up.

Where's the ending point?

2009-08-22T23:56:00.004+08:00

Yay, watched movie with Huilin and Eugene after mugging (; It was a last minute decision, hahs. "Where Got Ghost" LOL, it's hilarious. Okie, I somewhat like their sense of humour, cos it's SO Singaporean ;P But it's the very Jack Neo kind of movie, as usual. LOL, even though I was looking away from the screen most of the time, I don't think it's very scary for others la. Yeah, I know my limits. I had a great laugh, and I feel so much better ;D We wanted to splurge all our cash in our wallets, hahs but we failed to do so, we still left a few coins ;P

Two important things to do tmr:
Economics Essays.
Physics Tutorial.

Hotmail is getting on my nerves. I wanted to send an email to my birds but it's disallowing me to. Anyway girls, all of us going back on teachers' day ya? Dolly and I are (; Reply me if you see this k! Hope to see you girls soon! <3

2009-08-21T20:10:00.001+08:00

Yay, tmr mugging with Huilin and Yanying (;

I couldn't sleep yesterday night. I made a huge fuss out of it because I was desperate to sleep. Thank goodness there're my maid and my beloved grandma. Thanks for your tender love and care. Fortunately I managed to fall asleep beside my grandma at 10pm. I love you, grandma <3

Talked to daddy a moment ago. It's not that I need constant attention and love. But whenever I needed any one of you to be there, you'll all most probably be asleep like a dead log, and I'll never try to wake you up after failing once because I know all of you are tired and deserve the rest. It's unreasonable to wake you guys up to entertain me. And the person I'll turn towards to for comfort will always be my maid, cos she's always there. Now that my grandma is moving back and my maid will be staying at my grandparents house to take care of my grandpa, I'm at a lost. I'll learn to be independent.

I'm still a kid );

I failed to control my emotions again and again. This is annoying me. Solutions?

2009-08-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

It's over. I'll be back to school tomorrow, don't worry (;

I promised my Civics Tutor on Tuesday to reach school by 7.15AM EVERYDAY. I'll have to call her when I reach school. Oh man ); I'll have 30-45 minutes less of sleep ); *SCREAMS*

Yay, done my AQ! (;

Thanks Maria and Yanting for the updates (; Maria's one was very detailed, thanks a lot girl! ;D

Thanks for all the caring smses as well (;

I wanna watch movies! The Proposal & Scandal Makers! Anybody? ;D Hahhas, okie maybe it's not the time now, I should be mugging for Promos which is 5 weeks away ); But I still wanna watch... );

Time to study.

2009-08-19T01:59:00.003+08:00

Monday and Tuesday were terrible days. Shall reveal more details later.

To my late Grandpa, thanks for giving me the chance to do my part as a granddaughter. Those pain you've suffered for the past 11 months... Grandpa, you're the strongest man I ever knew. I'll keep the rest in my heart.

I'm rather emotional and short-tempered for the past two days. For that, I'm really sorry if I've displeased any of you or made you worried );

Monday was terrible enough. Tsk, so NOT gentlemen.

Tueday was WORST. Anyway, I totally embarrased myself infront of the latecomers and teachers. I was late for A levels SPA, tsk. Emotions overwhelmed me, I lost control of myself. For a moment I made my daddy worried, he thought I wanted to jump down cos when I called him I was crying despairingly, like the end of the world, and he couldn't comprehend what I was saying. He put his life in danger and came to school to look for me. I'm the worst kid ever. I'm sorry daddy and mummy );

I feel like a problem kid who gives people many troubles, not that I want to ;/

Oh and amazingly I managed to pass my math test 17/27, hahas, but my teacher marked wrongly so will be deducting some marks. Hm, not minus 4, please ;/

Hahs, for the first time I'm replying tags here:

Jasper: Pep talk? This week is lousy for me too ); I'm sorry I've been MIA online these few days to hear you rant, I hope things have gotten better for you (; Thanks dude (;

Norman AU: Hahahas thanks for the motivation (; eh but still, you can does not equate to I can. I hope you're catching up already! (;

Maria: Yup! (;

Chongwee: Hahahahas, aiyo you ar, lazy to do, tsk. I've got no time to do, cos I'm always wasting time doing other things. You're in NJ right? Yay, 09S25! ;D Hahas thanks, I'll try (;

Serene: boohooo ); We cannot like that anymore ); Hahahas, go overtake that smart boy ya! ;D

Yongting: Yay, I'm a cool CIP rep, LOL ;D thanks dude! Yeah, I want balloon! ); hahas I want promos faster end, then learn how to make! Ur...? Hahhas, eh you'll be a great counsellor, so patient (; I rejected Ms Tan suggestion to see the counsellor, LOL ;x Don't worry, I'll be fine! (; YOU DON'T EMO EMO TOO ALRIGHT! ;D Any problems, you can talk to me too or the peer coach ya (;

Eugene: LOL, surprising ya? (;

Chiew Ming: Hahahas, you found my blog too! I'm alright, no worries! (;

Yanying: Thanks little girl, don't worry, I will I will (; You'll see a happy Zandra on Friday okie, hahas! (;

Eunice: Thanks kumon kid! (; But you've your own problems too ); Hahas, but I'll accept your offer if I really cannot take it one day ya ;P Thanks for the sms in the morning (;

Done!

Things will get better, I hope.

For the next few weeks, I'll have to do some household chores ;/ Ironing of Uniform. That's the worst, I hope there won't be a hole or stuffs like that ;x Tsk.

CONTROL MY EMOTIONS! (;

2009-08-14T17:10:00.004+08:00

Lousy. Those drastic moodswings within me stressed me up. I just felt pissed off for no valid reason, tsk. Please pardon me.

Probably the worst week ever. And I really appreciate all the messages. At least I know there's someone who understands. Thanks a lot (;

Going to school everyday without doing my work sucks. Amazingly, I even did so for Economics. None of the teachers care, luckily. I'm lagging for Chemistry and Mathematics already, I don't mean tutorials, cos I don't even understand the recent chapters. My bad, I'm always unreceptive during lectures. It's time to really FOCUS. Oh, I've told myself that more than a dozen times.

The BIG thing is, MY SISTER'S BACK ;D hahahahas I LOVE THE BAG! <3 her many many ;D She must have been thinking of me so much, she bought the most things back for me! ;P I'm glad she's back, cos she's the most capable sister ever! Finally I get to rant to her after so long. My brother has been so engrossed in Maplestory, he pratically ignores me. My parents were so busy with my grandpa, now grandpas. At least there's sister to help them now, I wasn't of much use for the past 7 weeks ;/ sorry.

I should be going to Sydney this year end! YAY! Stacy's going too! hahahhas I wouldn't want to go alone (; It's an Economics Field Trip. Probably the first and the last in my JC life (;

My CT's mood wasn't very good lately. I can't be late for school anymore, even though I don't really care even if I have to meet the principal if I were to be late for the forth time, but my CT seems scarier now, I better be a good girl ;/

The-heck-care-attitude. Sometimes I hate myself for that.

I totally suck at leading. I'm better off a follower. Because I lack of patience and respect. Should have just sat back and waited for the sun to rise from the west (;

OH AND I TOTALLY FLUNK THE THREE TESTS(PHY,MATH&ECONS). MATH WAS THE WORST, GONE CASE. I'LL BLOG MY MARKS WHEN I GET BACK. DEVASTATING. I better study/revise my work before taking a math paper from now onwards. If I had the time, would I?

LOUSY WEEK.

2009-08-06T19:42:00.000+08:00

There were many things due today, I was struggling to keep myself awake yesterday. I thought I could make it through without sleeping, but I gave up at 1plus ;/

BUSY WEEK.

On monday, we had to settle the lighthouse model for PW Day, stayed back till 8plus. Night study food was yummy, hahas cos we were very hungry. Only managed to leave school at 9plus cos I had stomachache ;/ Thanks Jasmine and Huilin for waiting SO SO SO long for me! (;

On tuesday, I couldn't stay back and help to touch up some stuffs for PW Day, so sorry pw mates ); Tkd grading at Eunos CC. I had stomachache again. Anyway, I TOTALLY SCREWED UP. UTTER RUBBISH. I don't know why I got so nervous, I turned the wrong side and panic, rushed through the rest of the pattern and got it over and done with. But I was given a chance to repeat, which is just slightly better, TSK. That's the result of practising only once after the end of May. I've just thrown 30bucks into the dustbin, splendid. Reached home only at 11pm ;/ Hahs, TKD peeps are actually nice people afterall (;

On wednesday, it's PW Day! Hahahas, not bad, quite a lot of people came to our booth (; Lots of effort put in! It's quite worth it la to get survey results and work together as a group (;

TMR GOTTA WEAR RED! IT'S COMPULSORY IN PJ. Hahas but I like it! ;D

Hm.

2009-08-02T09:50:00.003+08:00

T I R E D. I'm sacrificing my sleep now and shall do my work soon... Time is running out, this weekend is packed with events, I can't get much things done. SHIT, a pile of homework is waiting for my attention.

Friday.
After dinner, I accompanied daddy to visit my grandpa. He's hospitalised currently. Things were real bad previously, but now he's able to sit on a wheelchair and move around, so I guess things are getting better (; I only reached home at 12 midnight.

Saturday.
PW at school at 8am. We did our lighthouse, puzzles, etc. It's more or less done already, still have a blank white board for us to decorate though. 3 days more to PW day. I'm skipping tkd again unless it ends early.

Parent-Teacher session. My parents were late by 30 minutes ;x Met Ms Tan and Mr Chu. Hahas, was alright la, nothing much. The main part of the conversation was all about GP. I've got really great teachers. Physics, Econs and PW (; I would lose them if I fail to promote/drop subjects. Hm, so I'll struggle my way through promos. Average C for all H2s and GP pass, possible?

NDP Preview. Didn't had time to change, so I just wore my PJ uniform go ;X Only got 2 tickets, so I went with my dad. Anyway, it's quite cool this year (; Compared to the last one I went (p5), this year is much better (; Thanks a lot mummy for waiting for us (; My mum even waited for us for dinner. The NDP Preview ended at 8plus, only had dinner at 9plus o.o

I flopped onto the floor when I reached home. I was too tired, I just slept on the floor in the living room ;S Manage to wake up at 12plus to bathe before I went to bed at 2am.

Sunday.
Set alarm at 5.30am, but I only managed to wake up at 5.50am ;x Was a little late, I'm sorry ;/ So we're supposed to gather at 7am at CCK square. What we did? 1. Grab goodie bag 2. Sang national anthem. 3. Sang national day songs. 4. Take photos. 5. Enjoy their skit. 6. Go home. LOL, quite er. But there's CIP hours and a free red shirt ;P

BBQ tonight!

Tell me, how on earth am I gonna finish my work.

Can I not go school on Monday? ;/

2009-07-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

Left school early with PW mates and PW teacher (; It's so beautiful! I wish there's a place like that to go for holiday. We're really lucky kids! It's kind of restricted area, yet they made an exception for us, so nice of them right (; Hahs, I'm thinking of working in MPA in the future ;P I still don't know what I wanna be.

Morning was scary. I hope everyone's fine.

So, you are like that.

And the vendor came and thanks to Huilin, I finally got the guys XS pjc polo tee! ;D Anybody wants the girls S pjc polo tee? I can't fit in ;x

Shit. Economics essays. I'm only 20% done. Gah, bye.

2009-07-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

PW! Tmr will be fun I guess! Probably, a once in lifetime experience. I'm glad we chose that topic afterall (; And I love my group cos it's filled with genuinely amiable people (; My group got into PW DAY! Hahas.

Rather busy this weekend. Oh my.

日久见人心. I'm not that dumb. But ultimately, everyone has their flaws, including me.

GP Comprehension 11/42. U. OMG. It's alarming. Tuition? I wish I was proficient in my two languages.

I wish I had a talent. I wouldn't be so aimless now. How pathetic.

听: 爱一直存在 (;

2009-07-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

No worries, I'm fine, thanks (;

Things weren't as bad as it seems. Blessed.

2009-07-26T00:28:00.002+08:00

Heartaching. I was shocked. Mum and Dad, I'm aware that both of you feel worse, but be strong and please mind your health. All I can do is to give both of you moral support );

It's too painful.

2009-07-24T20:32:00.003+08:00

BIRDIES HAPPY MEAL! Please keep it going okie (;

Every word is genuine in there.

I can't wait for 2nd August! Yup, it's my dear 4/2 class outing at West Coast Park! ;D Hahas, I'm excited though I don't know what are we doing actually, hahs ;x

SO DUMB. Hahas, newsroom. I thought it was my turn... Ah tat's turn in the end. But oh wells, I don't have to worry already (; WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM.

I miss the choir. 4 years together. Those wonderful performances.

I just want to blend in. Don't I deserve respect too?

WEEKENDS! (; with loads of work...

2009-07-23T21:36:00.000+08:00

I'm done with newsroom! ;D Thanks to a classmate of mine and a few others who have helped in a way or two, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! (; Omg, I've been worrying over it since the last weekend. Finally I got something to say for that 5 minutes. But it isn't very much my own effort ;/ and it'll be added into our GP grade. Reading off the whole chunk of words I printed out looks so unprofessional, but oh wells, I'm not able to speak for 5 minutes if i write in very brief point form ;/

Tkd phototaking yesterday. We had to assemble at the assembly ground to take the few photos, quite funny ;x

Sleepy day. There'll be a grading soon. It's quite stressful acually and I'll be skipping tkd next wed for pw ;/

Previously, I was asked(truth or dare) "What's the craziest thing I want to do?" I want to grab my passport and take a plane to hongkong for a holiday without informing anyone, hahas I really wish I could do that ;D hm.

Chinese Listening Comprehension. It's damn difficult ); I'm always left with two possible choices after elimination. So I just shade whatever I feel it is. Hahs, a few wrong already, bleh.

I'm indebted to you.

Yay, 2nd August! ;D

2009-07-21T22:52:00.002+08:00

My body ached the whole day. I felt so uncomfortable the whole day, like for every movement, I feel a tinge of pain. This shows how unfit I am, hahs. Yesterday PE was absolutely unique. The class of 22 managed to climbed over the high wall within 5oplus seconds and swung over the bar within 40seconds. It's fun yet painful (;

Thanks for always be the first few to show your care and concern, it's really comforting. It's a blessing to know you girls (;

Utterly disappointed.

I never knew how to end it. The ending has been always so abrupt. But I was really angry... and I'm sorry for taking those words so seriously.

Your graciousness made me felt even more ashamed of myself.

What have I been doing?

2009-07-21T00:24:00.003+08:00

I typed a whole chunk of things, but it vanished unintentionally.

In short, 2009 IS THE WORST YEAR EVER. Nothing has been right since the start of JC life, other than knowing a handful of lovely people. It's my own mistake to subject myself to be insulted by you repeatedly. Unknowingly, it hurts me a great deal. My bad, I was insensitive on my part as well. There's been many things happening, which makes 2009 such a lousy year. The road ahead seems worse. Can I make a U-turn?

NEWSROOM IS SUCH A BURDEN.

Isn't it silly to cry over such silly things? IT IS. Can you explain to me why do I have such unpleasant moodswings?

I miss my birds terribly.

2009-07-19T23:27:00.004+08:00

I had a weird dream. It's scary ;/

Insecure?

2009-07-19T15:01:00.003+08:00

I just opened Dolly's gift. I thought the thing inside was the chocolate shown on the box. Hahas, I opened and saw a variety of chocolates, LOL, dolly you're so cute, you really surprised me! ;D Thanks, the chocolates really helped.

There was a PW meeting at yanying's house yesterday. Thanks for the delectable meal! ;D Stayed till 11pm and we managed to do quite a lot within that few hours. It was really tough for the 3 sunburned members to stay awake till 11pm yesterday, so thanks people (;

There's this newsidon'tknowwhat thing implemented for GP. I don't know when's my turn. I've been flipping newspapers for ideas, but I still can't find any ); I need help.

It's never easy.

2009-07-17T23:06:00.007+08:00

YAY, I'm seventeen! ;D

I slept early yesterday night, so I was only able to reply this morning. I love ah lin's one, it's super long, hahas ;D All the smses meant a lot to me, so really, thanks for all the smses! (; esp. those from my 6 other birds! Bib's one made me laugh! the way you phrase it ;P hahs thanks for staying up late birdnest (;

Eunice called me, but my phone wasn't beside me. So I called her back, hahas then a few CSS-SA people took turns to wish me happy birthday ;D Hahas, yes my daughter always have such creative and sweet ideas ;D Thanks girl! and the CSS-SA guys (;

There was an little accident in the morning, I almost couldn't make it to school on time, I almost resort to taking taxi again. Thanks daddy for sending me to school (;

Maria and Stacy wished me happy birthday during Chinese lesson (; Thanks a lot Maria for the gift and card! Hahahs! You knew I like Hello Kitty?? Anyway, my first friend in 09s25! I'll also remember those fun and lovely memories with you girls, it's indeed memorable! (;

After math lecture, Jasmine was asking everyone to go canteen. Yeah and it was so sweet of them, they bought a cake for the July babies (Twins, Junhao and Me) ;D Usually we'll just sing a birthday song and that's it. Yay, thanks a lot my lovely 09s25! ;D

Met Dolly before I went into the hall for oral. Thanks meh meh for the chocolate and the card! (; It's really sweet of you (; Yup chocolates can make me happy ;D

A LEVELS CHINESE ORAL. HAHAHS, IN BRIEF, I STUTTER A LOT WHILE READING MY PASSAGE. RUBBISH. I hope for a merit ;/ I'm sure I'll earn that 5bucks! ;P

Yanying was the last candidate for oral. The girls gave me a present while waiting (; We went for dinner at lot 1, Kaari Family? hahahs though it didn't taste good, but I had a great company ;D We played truth or dare until we got no questions for truth ;P Couldn't do dare, cos whatever yy suggests will make us look so stupid and whatever i suggests will embarass us totally, hahas. So each of us owe at least a dare, hahs ;D I was really touched, you girls did a lot, and I'm really really really very grateful! ;D Thanks girls! I love the gifts, I'm gonna use that cute yellow water bottle on monday ;P

I was on the way home on the bus, my mum called me to check the sms. She bought my favourite Angie's Choice Yam Cake ;D hahas so lovely, it was really unexpected! ;D Celebrated my 17th birthday with my family at night without my sister. She's still enjoying herself in Korea la, hahs. YUMMY! Thanks a lot mummy! ;D

Thanks for all the wall posts in facebook as well! (; I thanked them one by one already, hahas ;P

&&&To the last to msg, thanks! ;P hahas.

Thanks for remembering my birthday! (; It was a great 17th birthday! (;

2009-07-15T18:33:00.003+08:00

I received all my Mid Year Examinations results already. Many were much better than expected (;

General Paper S
Chinese B
Mathematics A
Chemistry A
Physics B
Economics E

I've got the lowest marks in class for Economics. 45%. lowest. LOL. When I looked at my case study, I was utterly shocked. 9/30. Damn, I thought my case study would pass and my essays would fail. What a failure. It's okie, the overall grade was E and I expected it, hahs.

A load off my mind.

Class photo taking! Jasmine and Stacy were absent ); So the whole class photo only has 4 girls. I hope my smile looks genuine, LOL.

I must wake up early tmr. No more money for taxi fare ;x

I don't want your sympathy.

2009-07-13T20:00:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY! ;D

I'll blog all my grades when I get all of them back! (; But till now, it's been better then expected. I was prepared for the worst, my expectations were lower than many others, I guess that's the reason why I'm so satisfied with my results (; Feel so lucky!

I hope tomorrow would be fine too. *I really hope*

I owe money. Hahas, I made a bet with my class girls! ALL OF US LOST A BET FOR AT LEAST ONE SUBJECT ALREADY ;P So overall, I may earn money instead, bleh ;P

Cheer up my few friends! I don't wanna see you people sad.

2009-07-10T21:30:00.002+08:00

CHINESE. From 8am to 1pm, with breaks la. Hahas but we girls were quite naughty, we sat at the back of the hall and played BINGO instead. The winner gets a soyabean drink, LOL. Huilin lost a lot ;x sorry!

Contemplating whether to go Kbox or not. Decided to go afterall. 6 of us, Eugene, Kiansiang, Demas, Huilin, Stacy and me. LOL, Demas kept saying Eugene was like having his concert. Thanks for organising, really (; *better bring jacket next time, we were shivering.

New problems. I hope everything will be fine.

It's getting boring. I'm bored. Whatever.

Can you force me to do my work? I'm getting really lazy. But I gotta do my EoM and WR etc. FORCE ME. Even if you're a mile ahead of me, I wouldn't be motivated to catch up. I'm giving up.

I'm being so paranoid now. I guess it really freaked me out. I'm afraid, afterall. I don't know what's gonna happen. I hope it has come to an end.

SO RUBBISH );

2009-07-09T15:00:00.009+08:00

I'm sorry, please don't be offended. You can ignore this post as well. I shouldn't have typed this all out, but I'm really mad.

For the first time you see how unhappy I am. I was super pissed off when I was standing infront. I almost couldn't control myself. I'm sorry. Listen to what I am feeling. It's annoying me a whole lot. Okie, maybe this is seriously not a place for me. I thought we could be a class. I'll try to keep quiet after this stupid thing which I've initiated, should we even have it? I don't even want to deal with CIP already after the recent incident plus many many more reasons. We'll all just go mugging alone okie. Isn't that our forte?

I've been taking things for granted in the past. Now I really appreciate those hardwork, it's really tough.

I typed this in a midst of anger. YES. But they are somewhat what I've been feeling. I'm sorry for the harsh tone. I'm always complaining, I'm sorry.

I've lost the Kboxing mood already. Should I go tmr? I don't see a point anymore. Isn't it a CLASS outing?

Oh it doesn't really matter anymore.

Everything is a failure, totally.

And my beloved grey bag which I went all the way to hougang to collect it. My 'auntie' washed for me, and some patches turns colour. Although it isn't really that bad, BUT I WAS DAMN PISSED OFF. Not her fault, it happened to one of my dresses too, which I was upset about too. I don't know what's wrong. I FEEL LIKE TURNING THE WHOLE HOUSE UPSIDE DOWN. Okie, I better control my temper.

I took cab to school today cos I was going to be late if I didn't. My 5.90bucks.

I HATE SCHOOL. (again)

This is terrible.

2009-07-07T19:40:00.003+08:00

There's school tmr, FOUR HOURS OF GP... );

I've been enjoying myself for the last five days. No work done. Haven't touched the notes/tutorials/revision package. It's only mid-year examination, but I treated it like a MAJOR exam is over. hahs.

I went tanning at mabel's place with ex-class girls yesterday. Mabel, Eunice, Liying, Serene, Adeline, Esther and me ;D Sadly, my tanning failed... everybody else tanned more than me ); Lunch at Jurong Point's Mac, reminiscing the old css days.

MAHJONG SESSION AT HUILIN'S HOUSE ;D plus demas and eugene. Huilin's mummy was really nice, she came out and taught us the Da si xi, Ping hu etc sort of things. Learnt quite a lot, but there were some I couldn't remember. Hahs, was really fun, finally I get to play the real mahjong ;D We left at 11pm ;S

THAT LOSER, get lost. Irritated to the max. I complained to many people already ;x Luckily you were online. Don't worry people (;

Internal chinese oral. I read 9 words wrongly. My oral topic was about students taking pictures of teachers secretly ;S

The girls decided to send me home, so instead I invited them to my house for lunch and play ;D We played truth or dare, bridge, cheat, taiti and my hamsters ;P OH I'VE GOT A GOOD NEWS!!! My roborovskis GAVE BIRTH TO A TWIN TODAY ;D Jasmine spotted it and told us. I WAS SO PANICKY, I'M SO AFRAID THEY'LL EAT THEM UP. hahas it's the same feeling as the previous two batches of baby hamsters. OMG, SO LOVELY ;D My bad, I didn't realise it was pregnant, I only gave it tissue paper for its nest when I saw two tiny little babies lying in the food box. Yay ;D

Thanks to the people who send me home (; I'm really grateful.

2009-07-05T20:07:00.002+08:00

SO WEIRD. I shouldn't have called back thinking you have some serious business(CIP) to talk about. It turns out to be you just want to chat. I rolled my eyes. You wasted my outgoing call hours. And what's with that 'i just woke up' tone, I feel like screaming into the phone, SPEAK PROPERLY CAN. I don't even know you personally and I'm not interested to chat. PISSED OFF.

I went to do CIP at RP today. with my 9 other classmates plus one classmate's friend. The girls gave out goodies bag. LOL the aunties were quite scary.

I WENT SHOPPING WITH MY CLASS GIRLS TODAY AFTER CIP ;D Orchard ;D WALKED A LOT TO FIND HEEREN. and the weather was so hot. But I'm very happy with what i bought ;P We were so tired, all of us dozed off in the MRT. Especially Jasmine, LOL.

YOU DAMPENED MY MOOD. grr...

2009-07-04T14:20:00.004+08:00

YAY! MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER! ;D

Last paper (mathematics) was my best paper. I had a super fun day yesterday!

Together with my class girls, I had lunch at lot 1's KFC. We sat there stoning to wait for 11am, hahs, to order the lunch menu. Stacy didn't come along ); Some of the class guys asked us to go watch Ice Age 3, but we decided to go Huilin's house to play mahjong instead. Hahs, then Jasmine got change of plans so we brought forward our KBOX date to yesterday ;D Maria came along too! ;D

Yup, so we took mrt to Jurong Point and walked to Safra Jurong. Since K Happy only start at 2pm, we went exploring the place. We found a huge indoor playground. It looked super fun, with slides, balls etc and it's few storeys high. Hahs, I went to ask the person-in-charge if we can play ;P Yes, but the entrance fee is 9bucks, but my class girls were very enthu, we paid and went in! ;D HAHAHHAS, we climbed many steps up for that very very long slide. The route up was quite squeezy for me, cos it's meant for kids, and I'm quite big ;x It looked fun. LOL but we screamed our way down, cos it was freaking fast. Shocked, but it's super fun! ;D JASMINE, I'M PROUD OF YOU, YOU DID IT, I HOPE YOU HAD FUN TOO ;D We went back to play again after KBOX. Yanying and me got hurt at the last slide ;/ Luckily, mine was minor.

KBOX! I've been dying to go there and sing! ;D Hahs, I'm so glad we're all not shy singing in front of each other ;P They chased us out at 5plus. Anyway, Huilin sings very very nice ;D Hahahs, I was listening to the recordings Yanying bluetooth to my phone from the machine in KBOX, omg i freaked out, i didn't know my voice so so so sharp and teh~ ;X LOL, yucks. I should try to deepen my voice ;x

I went home for dinner then headed to my grandpa's house. He's not feeling well ;/ I hope he'll be fine soon.

WAHJONG! Hahs, when I reached home, it was nearly midnight. Thanks a lot for waiting for me ;P Played viwawa with Huilin and Yanying. LOL. It's quite fun eh. But i prefer playing the real thing ;P

Yanying was super evil yesterday! Always laughing the loudest at me and Jasmine! LOL, naughty girl.

LOVELY POST EXAM ACTIVITIES (;

2009-07-01T19:13:00.002+08:00

CHEMISTRY. I'm rather sad over it. I had too little time for Paper 1, and I wasn't focus for Paper 2.

3 papers are over. I foresee my marks to either pass marginally or fail. Perhaps for tomorrow's paper, chinese, as well.

I feel like I'm lagging behind again.

Will the cycle repeat?

2009-06-30T16:02:00.001+08:00

level of maturity.

roller coaster.

2009-06-30T14:50:00.003+08:00

I really fear for any misunderstandings.

Take a step back and be skeptical.

Time to grow up.

Anyway today was economics! a 2hours paper. Case study was manageable. the essays was quite lousy. i'm really lucky cos i read the first essay question and answer before, plus i revised the second essay question topic before i stepped into the exam venue. otherwise, my essays would really be so omg. let me pass please.

But it wasn't even my business.

I feel happier today.

An incoherent post. (editted)

2009-06-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

Physics? quite rubbish for me ;x i spent the most time and effort on physics during the holidays, yet i don't see any improvement in myself. i even tikam-ed last two mcq questions ;x just a pass will do, not a subpass.

Tmr? ECONOMICS. i cannot fail this mye, otherwise chu will ask me to drop to h1 (he has been saying this for many many many times). to be honest, i've been neglecting my econs. i'm so dead. CURSE.

ONE WEEK.

2009-06-26T20:32:00.002+08:00

I spent 3hours plus travelling today. i took all the mrt lines for my beloved bag ;x from red to green, green to red, red to yellow, yellow to purple, purple to green, green to red. home sweet home (;

I went JE library to study today and consultation yesterday.

i'm quite upset );

those lovely memories.

2009-06-25T01:41:00.003+08:00

SISTER LEFT FOR KOREA ALREADY ); she'll only be back on national day. ah and she won 2 national day preview tickets. i'll be going with my daddy (; cos my mummy doesn't want to go ;/

i'm tired. so is everyone else.

sometimes i wish i wasn't the only commonwealthian in my class );

2009-06-22T22:04:00.008+08:00

Boohoo, no extension of holidays. i'm so disappointed ); i was hoping everyday for them to announce there'll be extended holiday ); i'm really upset cos i seriously need more time to complete my revision ); now i gotta really rush through ); okie, my bad, i was slacking during the first 2 weeks of holidays ); i should just be prepared to expect the worst now );

Vote for extended holidays:
www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm
But i don't think it has any impact anymore );

On wednesday, i went dolly's house to mug, then had dinner at night.

On thursday, i went shopping with my girls.

On friday, i stayed at home to mug, but i spent most of my time doing other things.

On saturday, i went mugging with my class girls. Had father's day dinner at night with my mummy's side.

On sunday, i went my grandfather's house. Made our own popiah for lunch. My mummy ordered a 'sushi' cake for my daddy's, aunt's and cousin's birthday. it looked like genuine sushi! everyone there was so fascinated, we were all busy snapping pictures (; it's agaragar and cake, looks nice but don't taste nice to me ;/ but my sister love it. hahs. went home to bake cupcakes for my daddy. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! I LOVE YOU DADDY ;D

On monday, i went for consultation and mug.

I'm so tired of studying ); I SOUND LIKE I MUG ALOT, DON'T I? yeah, but in actual fact, i set aside lots of time for mugging, but i don't make good use of my time. so in the end, i wasted my time. i get really tired after i complete digesting one chapter of anything. sigh. i wonder when will i complete knowing the content of my important 4subjects. i'm not even talking about application yet. hahs. what a loser.

I love the word mug ;x

I'm confused with the dates.

I'M LEFT WITH SIX DAYS. CURSE.

2009-06-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

celebrated daddy's 51st birthday, sister's 21st birthday, my birthday, father's day and any other day you can think of, hahs, yesterday. cos sister's going korea soon for 7 weeks. so i had dinner at M hotel, cafe 2000 semi-buffet, which means there's a main course as well ;D IT'S REALLY YUMMY! it's so worth the money if you are a fan of seafood like me ;P lol and my family is so cute, these few weeks when we go eat good food, we'll say the same thing, okie this meal celebrate yada yada... we'll just find excuses to eat good food ;P hahas that's us, we love to eat (;

i'm back from shopping with fiona, eunice and serene ;D i just bought a top, stationaries and a headband. i couldn't find my bag! ); it's okie, i'll slowly hunt for it, it's more precious that way (; shopped from bugis to iluma to wisma to fareast.

it's not my problem afterall.

you're such a pest.

2009-06-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

SWIM. i'll learn how to someday (; hahs, went to swim with 4/2 girls in the morning at mabel's place (even though i don't know how to) i was hoping to tan a little, but i failed. only 7 of us went: mabel, liying, jolene, serene, adeline, anne and me (; i love the feeling after bathing after being in the swimming pool ;D had lunch at bk afterwhich.

hahas i was saying i'm going home to study. 3 hours past, and i haven't started on anything. i should go and sleep just now ;/ sigh.

i'm always going to foodcourts/kopitiam/banquet with jc mates. hahs no more mac/kfc/ lj. but i prefer the latter, which is more unhealthy.

i love to binge on junk food. kokocrunch, oreo crush and tuna puff within the three hours after a bk meal ;x i need to control my diet ;/

i should stop being so greedy and eat so much which makes me so bloated. i'll get tummyache and have to visit the toilet ;/ so if i can't finish my meal(i'm wasting food), i should stop, no?

but i may be going for a buffet soon, oh no.

i hate my double chin, or maybe triple ;/

2009-06-13T00:13:00.002+08:00

i'm a good girl today! ;D i actually went to woodland's library and do my work from 10am to 7plus pm ;D plus a one hour break for lunch. 8 hours of studying! o.o so lovely, even though i didn't complete much, but at least, i didn't waste my time like what i always do at home and have to stay up till 1-2am struggling... a sense of accomplishment (;

btw xin wang taiwan cafe, it's simple and yummy! ;D

i'm worried. i guess it's part of growing up. i hope you'll soon realise it's really a waste of time to spent so many hours on it. i hope you'll realise what is freedom. i hope you would stop using those ugly words. i believe you'll be good.

anyway one of my hamsters shows weird behaviour recently. it bites onto the ladder and tries really hard to flick it away, such that it goes out of place/falls onto the first level. this leaves it stuck at the second level. i don't know what does it wants ;/

i've gotten used to it.

(;

2009-06-11T02:37:00.004+08:00

18 days of holidays left. time passes really fast! first week was school stuffs. second week i was slacking terribly, nothing much done. hahas don't bother asking me what i've done, i'll tell you here. i've only studied four chapters of math and did the four chapters of math in the revision package. hahas, this is insane. YES, deep down i'm really guilty and worried for my mid years already. sometimes i really wonder how i can i just let days go by just like that. i don't really treasure time, do i?

ah anyway! i had dinner with my bird birds at cityhall on tuesday night. eunice was sick so she couldn't join us ); yeah anyway, it was a tuesday! so we had gelare waffle with ice cream! ;D the place was so packed, it was difficult to find seats for 7 ;x then dinner at hotpot culture at marina square. we had the set meals which was not worth the money... ;/ hahs next time we should decide on what to eat first ;P

woke up at noon. all of us went A.H. with daddy today. yeah things are getting better, daddy's happy (; then went tampines 1. hahs yup there goes my wednesday ;x but had a good dinner so it's worth it la ;P

lol, i can't help putting those smiles when i'm not angry, so bear with me ;x

ah and no more stayovers at grandma's ); sister's busy, so am i. sigh.

TIME TO MUG.

2009-06-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

SHOPPING! ;D mummy and daddy brought us to JB to relax. since the start of holidays, once every few days, my dad will tell me i'm more relax now. hahas i must really admit i was quite crazy for the last two months. i know my lousy attitude previously was really bad. thinking back, it was quite stupid to get so stressed up actually ;x what a dumb dumb. anyway, i'm in the holiday mood already, LOL. i love shopping in malaysia more than singapore ;P didn't bought much though.

celebrated my dad's dad father's day at my grandpa's house on sunday. hahs i was pissed off initially, but whatever (; and i left two hamsters there for my grandpa to play with and my little aunt to take care. hopefully they'll survive there ;/

sister and i are planning to stayover at grandma's house on wednesday, thursday and friday (; ever since we moved to stay at our own house, we haven't been visiting them regularly. 16 years. at times i regret getting so crazy during the olevels period. sigh.

life has been better for me, with more freedom, less nagging and stuffs. but i'm overwhelmed by guilt. i wonder if life has been better for brother and daddy o.o

someone has got to be the bad man. you are the noble one.

it's human nature to be selfish.

2009-06-05T20:48:00.004+08:00

PIONEER EXPLORER! 4th of June. I MISS THOSE LITTLE KIDS! ); Yesterday was certainly a happy day (; After physics tutorial, we had briefing at LT1 for pioneer explorer. The kids came shortly after that. hahahs they are such tiny little kids, so cute ;D but they are very naughty also ;x they love to run. one of them run faster than me too, LOL. MY GROUP IS BEAST. and you know what's our cheer, it's just a short and simple BEAST!!! LOL. anyway i had a great time, even though i was rather tired at the end of it. hahs i hope they had fun too ;D

hahas then afterwhich i tagged along to help youngbin shift house. LOL, rather eventful. and he treat us to cafe cartel for dinner ;P

i went for econs lecture today completing only 3 essays beforehand. we're suppose to complete 6. hahas, nothing happened, luckily. Then had lunch at lot 1 with class people, i ate roti prata, and had stomachache when i got home ;/ i got so tired, i had a 6hours afternoon nap.

yay, no more going back to school ;D

2009-06-03T17:35:00.003+08:00

boohoo. my phone is disfigured. there's so many scratches now... i dropped my phone at the side of my bed and took almost 30 minutes to get the phone out of the stupid hole ;/ i wonder if my laptop is overworking. since holidays started, my laptop works around 10 hours a day. i use it day and night. the bottom of it gets very hot after awhile. i'm a terrible owner.

yay, pioneer explorer tmr! ;D Yanying, huilin, jasmine and me are going to be facilitators for 10 little kids! they'll probably be very cute little bunch of people ;D today we helped out in packing their goodies bag and prizes, lucky kids! hahs. *excited*

i passed my econs case study test! omg. so unexpected. 11/20. hahas yeah it's like just pass only. but eh, i'm very happy already ;D i expected myself to fail. hahas unlike many others, i don't have big dreams. CHU CHU CHU. he's the most pressurising teacher.

chinese.

mid years? i haven't started studying on anything. HAHS, i'm so dead.

2009-06-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

PW!!! Met up at cck at 8.20am. hahas, i think only glen was punctual. We're suppose to go MPA to get information from the person-in-charge. zongsheng came and look at us waiting for him and asked "am i overdressed?" LOL. maybe i am too ;x hahas cos yanying and keith wore slippers, then we wore shoes. hahs, then on the way, they keep saying just let zongsheng represent us, go in himself, lol.

anyway, the person i contacted was on leave, he told me beforehand but he didn't tell me who specifically am i going to contact to guide us. but luckily the people there were very patient and friendly, then another person-in-charge came to entertain us. omg, they were really kind and nice towards us ;D good service, i love it! ;D they photocopied articles for us, gave us maps and dug up ancient photo albums for us to view and perhaps come by next time to photocopy. so lovely right! (;

we went into a meeting room i guess, the view there was pretty! can see the busy port or sea or whatever, hahs ;D

then we went to a few other places before going home (; i'm very tired...

LOL it's like a pw group outing. yeah all the places we went today, i never go before ;x perhaps pass by, but didn't enter. great day! ;D

"don't behave like commoners ar" this phrase keep popping up in my mind, and i get so digusted ;/ aiyer.

oh and the bubbletea at queensway mrt station is disgusting. IT'S UTTER RUBBISH ;S their pearl and drink CMI. sweetalk is still the best.

econs tmr... luckily at 10am ;P

2009-05-31T22:13:00.004+08:00

39 things to be done this June holidays. how many things have i completed? none. hahahahs, i'm in the holiday mood already. oh my goodness. TODAY SHALL BE THE LAST DAY I'M SLACKING, seriously.

i was trying to finish watching the korean drama, likable or not. Currently, it's on channel U. i like the actors and actresses in the show ;D but it's 170++ episodes. i skipped episodes, and stop at episode 122 when the main actor and actress are together ;D it's really quite scary to sit infront of the laptop for 8 hours straight, watching drama. when i go to sleep, i worry for my eyes ); okie, no more crazy over drama.

tmr, i'll be going to PSA building for pw. and perhaps raffles marina. hahas yanying is dreading to go there. i wanna go see! but the distance also make me don't wanna go... sigh, shall decide tmr (;

yeah i'm gonna go np to visit fiona and jiamin soon! planned nicely already ;D

i also don't know. i hate it.

i'm quite free this holidays, better prepare well for my mid years. bye (;

2009-05-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

hi, i'm a happier person now ;D i've learnt to only think about the happier happenings. yeah, even though whatever i blurt out may sounds so super pessimist, no i'm not, it's just a habit of mine.

I'VE GOT SILVER FOR NAPFA! ;D pj is such a nice school, they allow us to retake our 2.4 and 5 stations so many times. hahs many pe lessons have been spent on retaking napfa, and they don't get bored of it ;/ it's a good yet bad thing. k, at least i get to retake my shuttle run, standing broad jump and sit and reach and end up with a silver, breaking my consecutive bronze record for 5 years? ;D

i just finished a packet of potato chips all by myself. i ate a cone of ice cream near midnight yesterday. hahas it's a big problem, cos after i finish eating, i'll go to sleep in less than an hour. LOL, how unhealthy! better kick that late night supper eating habit soon.

i don't care anymore, i'm not bothered anymore. i'll not let it dampen my spirits (;

selective.

2009-05-19T21:08:00.002+08:00

what more can i ask for? with such lovely bunch of people around me, who drop smses/messages to encourage me to jiayou, to talk to me and listen, asking me to persevere, and willing to help me anytime etc. the birds email thing really made me feel even more blessed cos i still got the 7 of you with me even though we're all over the place, working towards our different goals. i'm really grateful to you people, and don't worry, i'll persevere (;

each time my eye twitch, does it signifies something bad? really, stop these happenings. it's really heartaching and upsetting. i'm getting very worried. please, be strong.

i was falling asleep one night when i felt i was sinking and 'leaving this world'. seriously, i was so afraid. i struggled to wake up. my heart was palpitating fast when i opened my eyes to make sure it was just a dream. yeah, then i knew i was afraid of dying.

PW! ahh, quite screwed up ;/ still need one more proposal.

econs case study test tmr. damn, i'm prepared to fail.

2009-05-16T23:50:00.004+08:00

I WANNA THANK TO THOSE WHO WENT FOR THE CIP TODAY ;D pretty happy, 13 people went: me, yanying, jasmine, huilin, byran, yongting, kunda, chiew ming, irfan, yen fung, mervin, jun hao, young bin (; lovely class, lovely people, thanks for being the enthusiastic bunch of people ;D

hahahs but i'm really sorry to get such a demoralising CIP ;x we're suppose to walk to up to strangers and promote 'the republic run' held at republic poly. 30bucks each person, but there's race pack, lucky draws and the fund goes to charity. hahas it's not an easy job, the 13 of us only clinched 2 deals. omg ;S but there're many other volunteers as well, so 13 people signed up from 10plus am till 2pm. LOL. we only did 4 hours of CIP but was given 8 hours cos it's a saturday ;P and within that 4 hours, 0.5 hour was spent waiting for the person-in-charge to brief us, and some of us went in the mall to slack during the remaining 3.5 hours ;X

11 of us went to have lunch at the foodcourt afterwhich (;

and coincedentally, another class of pjc went for this cip as well, hahs.

PW, GPP! my group came over to my house in the evening. changing topic, which i hope would be much much easier. and i feel more comfortable in my group now (;

i met up with my birds minus 2 on friday (; hahas, we're all so broke ;x

things have brighten up, but it seems that my recent aloof attitude has driven away some of you. i'm sorry. i don't know how );

i haven't started on my homework. crap.

2009-05-13T22:55:00.002+08:00

我好累...

2009-05-13T22:39:00.003+08:00

mentally tired.

i don't want to go school tomorrow. teach me how to fall sick. it has been a long time since i last fell sick. sigh, my immune system seems too strong. this gives me no chance to skip school. i'm so tired of waking up so early. to drag myself out of bed every morning is such a torture.

i'm so annoyed.

nothing pleasant today. what's so pleasant these days anyway.

birds of a feather flock together. this clearly explains it.

i wonder if i ever get too sarcastic?

oh please, don't bother.

2009-05-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

quick post!

MATH TEST TMR! please make sure i study for it later and not tmr morning ;x it has been a habit for me to start studying in the morning on the test day. better kick that bad habit soon.

ahh everyone's so stress and upset! hahs i've found my complain zone ;D yeah we made a pact to complain to each other to destress! yup yup make sure we do okie (;

i feel so blessed (;

*birds, can we meet up soon? in june? lets go study together or destress together? (;

time to rush chemistry TYS...

i'll keep a distance.

2009-05-11T14:39:00.001+08:00

where's that genuine smile?

2009-05-10T23:35:00.003+08:00

GPP is killing me. our group is still deciding between glen's or yanying's. yup so i gotta edit 2 ;S i'm edittng the second one now, sorry i'm taking such a long time. hahs i don't know if i'm doing it correctly la ;S okie my bad, i'm lazy to digest the whole exampler and do thorough research on the topics. or rather, i don't have the time anymore. i'm sorry ;/ if it's utter rubbish, just throw it back at me.

my pw group feels too diverse. somehow, i don't know how to communicate with them. except for yanying la ;P i hope things will work out right. tired of speaking with much thought and effort. sigh, li bu cong xin. i know i'm not doing enough, i hope to contribute more yet i lack of energy and brains, and i feel so guilty. i'll try.

feel like a loser who's so out of place, everywhere.

thanks everyone (;

happy mother's day!
I LOVE YOU, MUMMY ;D

in short, today was &#(@#&!$%.
grr.

2009-05-08T17:55:00.002+08:00

after speaking to ms tan on the phone, i've decided to wait till mid years. yup and i'll try my best (; she's a great teacher ;D

my bunch of class girls are real nice people (; i'm sorry for bringing up this topic. hahs you get what i mean, when i share my worries, some of you seems affected and worried for me as well ;/ i'm so sorry, and thanks for your care and concern, really. don't worry, i'm fine and i'll only consider dropping after mid years (; i'll chuck that notion aside for now. and thanks jasmine and huilin who offered to help us with our work (; if i'll need to change class, i'll definitely miss this great group of girls ); but i'm really grateful to meet you girls in jc (;

today's ben.p last day teaching us gp. IVAN WILL BE BACK. omg ;/ stressing me up further. there's an english week essay to be done by tuesday... but anyway, we did a card and bought a cake for ben.p ;D LOL i wonder if he expected anything like that from our class, and i guess not ;P ahahahs, it's not my idea btw.

a 'long' holiday!

almost slipped my mind, mother's day coming! (;

2009-05-07T19:38:00.003+08:00

should i or should i not?

i'm thinking of dropping my h2 physics to h1 physics. if h1 econs was so much simpler than h2 econs, i would definitely choose to drop econs. i heard h1 physics is half the syllabus of h2 physics and without spa. plus if i drop physics, i heard there'll be a possibility i can still stay in my class. i like the people in my class, my pw group and my 5 other girls whom i go everywhere in school with. but sister is so right, if you drop, you've already become a 3h2 1h1 combi student, why still want to stay and take up a space in a 4h2 class, it's like i'll no longer fit in there if i drop a subject. my sister encourages me to drop physics as well. then now i heard pjc's econs results quite crappy, physics is better, which means if i take h2 econs, it becomes my main subect, then i may still end up with a lousy econs grade in a levels afterall.

1. drop a subject or not? 4h2 vs 3h2 1 h1.
2. drop which subject? econs or physics.
3. how much simpler is a 3h2 1h1 combi? how much more time would i have for other subects?
4. would i regret? plus i may change class.

seriously, i'm in a dilemma. i can't make up my mind. i'm afraid of change.

but i can definitely tell you, i'm not coping well now and it's damn saddening. i've lost my fighting spirit.

can you tell me what to do? should i wait till mid years over, get the results then decide? but i'm quite sure, my econs will be the lousiest. would everything be too late then?

sigh, teach me how.

2009-05-06T20:47:00.005+08:00

thanks a lot for the care and concern (; i'm alright, don't worry.

the shortlisted list for taekwondo exco is out already. the teachers-in-charge and senior(s) chose the 10 shortlisted ones. i'm not shortlisted. hahs, to tell you i'm not at all disappointed, i'll be lying. yeah a little disappointed. but it's alright, the ones who got chosen deserved it anyway (; there'll be interview for them since there's only 5 positions, so jiayou (;

after cca, there was a long long queue to meet mr ching (my pw teacher). yeah, final draft tomorrow, omg. luckily there's another pw teacher available with shorter queue, hahs. the teacher was really nice, i don't know her, she don't know me, but she was willing to listen and gave constructive feedbacks (; feel so lucky.

oh and i failed my standing broad jump. GRR...

and!! i'm freaking tired of sprinting from the traffic light to school just to save myself from one detention. teach me how to kick the 'lai chuang' habit.

live in the present. the past no longer matters.

i really wonder what's next. unpleasant things keep happening around me and on me, luckily, with solutions. sigh, take off that mask.

to be honest, i don't regret going to pjc, but i regret ending up in 09S25. i don't wish to drop any subject, i don't wish to switch classes, i don't wish to retain. i took the wrong step right from the start, thinking i would cope perfectly well. it turns out that i'm totally wrong. so that's my fullest potential.

i need a holiday.

let's keep a distance and i'll control my emotions.
you know, i'm strong.

2009-05-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

you'll never know how the lousiest feel till you are the lousiest, seriously. don't bother. words of encouragement, words of wisdom, people would just say okie at the end just to make you feel more appeased. do they mean it, no. what's the point. anyway thanks for hearing me rant. (but i 'm regretting now, seems like a burden) sigh, people complain to me, i'll listen, i'll throw back words of encouragement and optimism. hahs seriously, what positive impact is there? i really don't know. do i have many people to complain too? seriously no. cos people prefer to complain to you instead of you complaining to people. yeah. that's life. and usually when i complain finish, it's like backfiring, why didn't i put in the effort at first. yeah, damn it. means i can't really complain. grr.. this is going round and round. shall end.

2009-05-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

will i pass? yeah i hope i will, if not i'd have wasted 30 bucks. yup, grading at eunos cc. hahas i did one part wrongly, i forgot to put my hands down... hopefully i was not caught cos there were 4 other girls doing the pattern with me and there were only 2 people there to grade us ;/ we waited close to 2 hours for our turn to be graded ;S omg, wasted time. hahs and there were many other kids and youths going for grading as well. when we look at those little kids (half my size) already wearing green and red belts on their waist, and we are only wearing white belts, we feel so zi bei ;x hahas yeah and the little little kids look very very cute! ;D

SUBWAY FOR LUNCH ;D yummy.

the was a long queue outside the library today at lot 1. those aunties and uncles thought they are giving out free gifts ;X hahas no, we have to scan our ic or ezlink cards for easy contact if there's swine flu. yeah, troublesome but for a purpose. i wish school will stop for weeks due to this flu ;x i'm dreading to go school already. teach me how. how to be sick ;/

what i have done:
physics online quiz.
dynamics assignment.
physics pratical 8.
economics question 1.
edit PI (final draft 1).

hahs that's all i did till now. i'm self sabotaging );

wonderful.

2009-05-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

MAC FOR BREAKFAST ;D was supposed to meet up with birds at 10.30am at westmall mac. but i woke up at 9.55am, i'm so sorry, i was late ;/ i finally saw anne and bibiana (; but i had to leave after breakfast to go make a new pair of spectacles. my current spectacles screw keep falling off. yup anyway i got a new spectacles (; collecting next week.

and then tomorrow i'll need to head down to eunos for taekwondo grading. omg, all the way there ;/ and we're supposed to meet at eunos mrt station at 9am. omg 9am ;S i've got to wake up early again. shall have lunch with taekwondo friends then go library do tutorials with yanying and huilin (;

then on sunday, tutoring at 9.30am. okie, this means i need to wake up EARLY AGAIN. grr...

i'm so tired.

2009-04-30T23:11:00.005+08:00

what an eventful day.

i took cab to school, for the first time. cos i was late again! luckily there was another jc1 girl at the bus stop and suggested to take cab to school, otherwise i'll be late for the second time. phew. we alighted near cckss since we thought there were still time for us to walk to school, and save some taxi fare. yup so we alighted and strolled our way to school. hahas and so unexpectedly everyone started running towards school. crap, going to be late again, ran to school and was panting and perspiring heavily in the parade square. sigh, shouldn't have strolled.

boom. i failed my economics test as expected after i took the test. 6/15 and i think chu was being linient for my paper. GRR... upset ); sigh. anyway today had 2 plus plus hours of economics tutorials. woah ;S

i felt much better after the lovely meal at pizza hut. headed down to lot 1 for dinner and movie with my current class girls. only 4 went, out of 6. hahs but i still had fun (; x-men origins: wolverine. 3 of us, including me, kept sleeping during the movie. each time they fight i was zzzz... then wake up out of the blue to continue to watch and it repeated a number of times throughout the whole movie. LOL then finally the movie ended, we all were like confessing we slept during the movie except huilin who was frightened while watching every part of the movie. LOL damn funny ;P wasted the 9bucks la. hahahhahas. and and and jasmine dropped 2bucks, passion card and 2 tickets and yanying dropped her huge pencil case while watching the movie. ran back to hunt for them under the seats. we were laughing so crazily after the movie ;P hahs we're so tired!

night! (; busy weekend, plus lots of school stuffs to be done. insane.

2009-04-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

life has been bad. i'm not really enjoying life now. even food doesn't makes me happy ); i'm quite bored of the canteen and cafe food. it feels like i'm leading quite a sad life. i feel so pathetic.

oh enough. let this be the last. let the journey ahead be smooth sailing. life is certainly unfair. take good care of your health please );

I'M LATE FOR SCHOOL TODAY. i woke up late, i couldn't find my collar pin and the bus came quite late. first timer, no punishment. but this means i can't be late again );

i finally got my grouping for PW. new group, i got kicked out from the very pro group ;/ hahahahs. yeah but it's okie, my current group is great as well. there's yanying, glen, keith, zongsheng and me! (; and my draft 2 PI got low ME. okie it reached ME, quite happy ;D

you don't get it.

2009-04-28T18:52:00.004+08:00

DEBATE! that's the activity for today's GP lesson. yanying's and my group was the first two groups to debate. hahahs, majority was like presenting more than debating, including me ;S and i spoke with totally rubbish grammar. the whole thing was quite rubbish actually ;x thursday will be the other groups turn to debate. hahs interesting (;

i packed my worksheets already ;D

i hope nothing bad happens. it'll be fine (; come home quick!

i just counted, i actually emailed 20 organisations begging for CIP already ;x yeah and sadly not all replied. until now i only had 1 successful CIP trip done for the class. recently 2 replied but both happens on days we're not free ); this shows how busy we are, sigh.

complains, everyone does it don't they ;/ thanks.

and i wore my new shoes today and i have blisters now and one of the shoes has blood stain ;/ ouch.

everyone seems sick. GET WELL SOON ALL (;

2009-04-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

FIFTEEN TWENTY-THREE ;D yup, had actual napfa 2.4km run today for pe lesson. it's the first time this year i went below 17mins. good good, it's a C grade. hahas but i won't get even a silver la, cos my shuttle run, standing broad jump and inclined pull ups cmi. so a bronze will do (;

my weekend was spent lazing around again. 10% of the work done? HAHS. yes i'm dead tonight, cos i've got math, chemistry and physics tutorials to rush through tonight as it needs to be completed tomorrow. OMG. damn power, what a slacker.

AND THE WEATHER IS GETTING SO SO SO HOT. i want it to rain, now.

my bag was very heavy today. it's only filled with worksheets. hahhahahhas, i didn't pack my bag for a very very long time and my stuffs are all over the place. my two classmates always laugh at me and during math lecture we would be comparing who takes out lecture notes first, me or my another classmate ;P LOL damn funny. okie, can someone help me pack? ;/

anyway, brother is having his midyear. he's addicted to a game. my daddy is unhappy. sigh.

2009-04-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

confessions of a shopaholic. went vivo on friday and met up with ivyna and may. jasmine couldn't make it ); they 3 are all in acjc without me... but luckily i'm not forgotten ;P it's amazing we still hang out together after so many years (; looking forward to the next outing!

it's time to reflect. i wanted to give up tutoring. i don't feel that i'm doing a good job. sigh. is it time to coop myself in the room to mug and put aside my social life? it's time to prioritise. how important is academic?

grr.. i hate fats. i thought i would gain more muscles, but i gained more fats instead ;/

oh and i grew a cm ;D

it's good to have an elder sister when she's in the good mood ;P i've cleared my doubts on chemical bonding content, finally. thanks a lot (;

focus. i still can't sit still with tutorials in front of me ;/

2009-04-24T00:28:00.002+08:00

cooled down. i'm feeling much happier, finally.

i was supposed to meet fiona today at lot 1 and pass her pe tee. then decided to join fiona, jiamin and eunice to have dinner together, met jasper on the bus and went along with us. and i reached home at 9plus after taking many many many 'xi nu ai le' pictures ;D hahahs even though there's tutorials to complete, chinese test tmr, that few hours spent at lot 1 was worth it. i miss the birds. i think i was happier then.

chemical bonding. i'm totally confused ;S

i'm the last in class for chinese composition. but i haven't got back my scripts, wonder what crap i wrote ;/

anyway, i represented my class to go for the 10 days in europe/asia/china thing. yeah i was the out the first round. hahahs so stupid.

lastly, i got my GI ;D

2009-04-21T22:52:00.004+08:00

i want to grumble. it has pissed me off. i don't know what's it's problem. i wonder if i've been over sensitive, but i guess not. i've never experience such extreme things. now i feel like an outcast, a joker for it to laugh at and make a fool of and i'm unhappy ;/ those giggles, irks me.

it's like i'm experiencing how the lousiest at academic feels like, how the extreme making fun of feels like, what a loser i am.

ignorance is bliss. let's ignore and get on with life (;

2009-04-21T21:49:00.003+08:00

i'm finally improving. i'm finally starting to do my work at 7pm. (usually i procrastinate till 8plus towards 9) yeah and i studied for my economics test tomorrow already (; that 2 hours was worthwhile. i know the content but to apply is a different thing, so hopefully i'll be able in that 30 mins for a 15marks essay.

today was a weird day. tension? i appreciated that email and agree with it totally, but it actually made me realise how wrong was i. i thought my class was perfect, till yesterday, i realise i've got so much to complain. we got to work in harmony.

i failed my physics test, 11/25 ;/ and i'm bottom few in class as usual, crapppp... my thermal physics is worse, so i'll foresee to fail the next test on that chapter as well.

anyway, i deleted a post. it was all words of anger, frustrations, disappointment. i think i need to learn some anger management, seriously. and how do i get rid that moody feeling which i've been feeling all these while.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR................

彩虹天堂.

2009-04-16T19:02:00.003+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS! CONGRATS CSS CHOIR ;D we live to sing.

based on a facebook quiz, my mental disorder: constant pms. hahahas ;x anyway, i'm having crazy mood swings. i'm sorry for being moody or showing any unhappy expressions these days. thanks to those who cared.

be tactful.

i hope you're fine.

it irks me, a lot. perhaps i'm envious, or you're extreme. don't question on this.

2009-04-14T21:08:00.003+08:00

冷.

i feel so lost, everywhere.

we're no longer close bonded, seems all over the place ;/

control, my emotions.

2009-04-13T19:37:00.002+08:00

i'm confused. i wish...

2009-04-12T18:16:00.002+08:00

woah, i just completed my economics assignments for this easter holiday. except the casestudy/essay due on thursday. 6.17pm. few more hours left for the other 6 subjects. oh my. i got back my first PI and graded high and low AE, so overall AE. need to make all the changes by thursday (the next due date for draft 2). i thought my idea was quite good at first, now no ;/ but i'm not going to change my idea, i'm not a creative person. sigh.

brother is going to watch campus superstar finals at mediacorp today. i'm so jealous, i'm only able to sit infront of the television and watch the finals tonight. hahs.

there's PE tmr. ahh.

i love to procrastinate.

2009-04-11T18:37:00.002+08:00

SHOPPING ;D it's ladies favourite. i woke up at 6am yesterday and went for a day trip to JB with my family. sadly, there's jam at the custom. lunch was at 'the wan' which resembles singapore's 'wan chai', but they differ a lot. the food there is quite rubbish ;S we had dimsum for tea, sushi for dinner and ate at 'da pai dang' for supper. i reached home at 12plus ;D sis and i had not enough time for shopping... ;/ on the way back we found a new shopping mall. hahs, and we're gonna shop till we drop at that shopping mall the next trip (;

my class girls came over to my house today for chinese project (; and it's completed!

now i'm in the midst of tutoring.

so you should have realised i'm dead tonight and tomorrow, cos i've got many assignments to be done. yeah, great.

2009-04-09T17:52:00.003+08:00

pain. my arms and legs are aching terribly. it takes much more effort to climb up and down the stairs ;/ i'm so worn out. monday's pe was quite fun. we're supposed to bring 5 watermelons per class. then we ran as a class, keep passing the watermelon behind. and afterwhich we had to pass the ball around our head, waist and legs, etc. hahas and i'm one of the lucky ones who got the tiny tiny watermelon, so it was a breeze to do those exercises ;P

we learnt the first pattern for taekwondo already. hahs, hopefully i'll pass the grading (i don't know when) and not waste the 30dollars grading fee. i'm afraid i'll stun and forget everything ;S

i slept at 1am yesterday to complete 3 econs essays and chinese homework. luckily i did, but i did it terribly. today mr chu flare up cos 1/3 of the class didn't do his assignments ;/ gosh, he's LOUD. to be in 09S25, is it a blessing?

physics test, gone case. math quiz, i made careless mistake ;/

it was just pure coincedence.

ps: pj uniform is actually pretty as well (;

2009-04-01T22:00:00.003+08:00

PROJECT WORK PRELIMINARY IDEA. yes, draft 1 is due tomorrow! i spent over 10 hours on it, yet not a good job done ;S okie, this shows how inefficient i am. yup, and thank you to those nice people who helped me edit and gave feedbacks (; (i think i chose a wrong topic to do on, oh no ;/)

it's been a grouchy day for me. i'm having moodswings~ ;S yeah, and i feel more and more anti-social as days goes by in pj. i'm sorry, zandra is still an introvert who does not know how to interact.

20/50 for my 2nd gp essay. hahs, you tell me, where got hope? seriously ;S

i wanna have a meal at pizza hut.
i wanna watch a movie.

anyway, i got laughed at so loudly today and i was so embarrassed ;/ damn evil laa. grr...

let me dig a hole and bury myself in it.

2009-03-30T17:48:00.003+08:00

WEE! i enjoyed my pe today ;D it was like going back to the orientation days ;P we had to fill up bucket of water, carry back as a team and which team was the fastest/who's bucket was the most filled get water bags, etc. then we played sissors paper and stone, and the winner gets to throw water bombs at the loser. hahas, it's so much fun for a pe! ;D but tmr's pe will be interval training... );

PROJECT WORK. PI ;/ i'm doing task 2: conservation. 5.5.5.5.4 vs 6.6.6.6, i want to stick with my old group ); but i think there's a high chance mr ching will choose to split us up and regroup ;/

life's been stressful. i can't help losing control

i went queensway with huilin on friday and we both bought a similar new lovely bag for school. yeahs, but i'll only use it after i get my new uniform on thurday ;D

oh and spectacles broke.

i'm looking forward to the next holiday.

ouch.

2009-03-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'M SUITABLE TO BE A KINDERGARDEN PRINCIPLE! hahs, ecareers.sg. it's a 'similar' assessment to the one we did in secondary school. i was previously suited to be a bartender. yeah, now a kindergarden principle (; LOL.

twenty-one/fifty. yes, i failed my general paper diagnosic test essay ;S and my economic test was lousy too, but at least i passed ;x

sorry for the small font, will edit next time. bye.

2009-03-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

i hope that was a concern and not a chance for mockery ;/ thanks.

think and think and think...

2009-03-23T21:25:00.002+08:00

PW QUESTION! yes, emergency or conservation? conservation, i guess. All thanks to pw, i skipped PE today ;P

yup, back to school (; nothing changed though. everything is still as fast paced. 4 h2? 3 h2 1 h1? actually i should not really think of this anymore, but i'm uncertained again when my economics teacher talked about it. i don't know what marks i'll get back tomorrow for economics test ;/ confidence? no more, everything.

let me hide in a corner. people love to judge, don't they?